... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...Brian,

Ustad Ali Akbar Khan

Thursday, June 18...one of the greatest musicians ever passed...his music has proven to be a very special gift, and has taught me as much as any art I have ever been exposed to.

...life is a test to see if you can remain kind...
...or to see if you can return to kindness if it is seemingly out of reach...

...I fooled myself into thinking that I was Shiva...
...I am but half a dancer, I just...
...I don't know the rest of the dance...
...I can't put the pieces back together...
...I am not what I danced for...

today I turn the same age as my father was when he died...I have five months to outlive him. something I have never allowed myself to imagine over the thirty-five years since his death. funny that this day is filled with mourning...I guess I mourn for him everyday, but today his shade weighs heavier than ever on me. here's to you Lorin. I wish you were here.